1. |
Frustration
05:43
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I have a big frustration
It is not recommended to you
I am disgusted by obligation
And I envy you,
Don’t make a progress, please
I’m begging you
I don’t want things that can solace me
I wanna see only reality
So, never give me consolation
because it is not a clue
With it you can’t rescue
Look at these weeds on my way
They grow up day by day
Go, burn them urgently
Man, it is so primary
All plans are procrastinated
Thus, dreams can be frustrated
I am accustomed to loosing every time
I swear, it is not me, this life is not mine
Hey, parents, give me some money please
I don’t have my own
The story of somebody’s lucky life
Is the reason that makes me feel not alive
Coz a number of their efforts are not
as many as mine
Let me see what’s fake, what’s truth
I don’t need exaggeration and boast
You can’t imagine what I think
That I keep inside
I think all about you that you can’t realize
As if I’m five years behind
I’m searching for real me, but can’t find
The reason of all failures is
not others, it’s only me
It is just reality
Wanna loose self-esteem
I don’t deserve this feeling
My treat was so surly
But why did you forgive me?
Please tell me constantly
about my brutality
I need just what I deserve
But I see too much respect and no hurt
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2. |
Idolized
04:16
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You’re keeping silence
That breaks me into parts
My mind is torn up
by lots of doubts
Don’t start to fade away, stay,
Don’t make any sad surprise
Don’t tell me, please that
I will not ever see your beautiful eyes
Watching you in the real life
has become
just a dream
coz it’s out of reach
Now you belong to very distant place
I’m looking for both your love
and trouble to embrace
I wish I could keep you satisfied
I wish I could make a sense
Could shine in your life
My dreams let me dive into your eyes,
sink in the depth of them
and not wake up
My pain is just vain comparing with yours
So I’m ready to tolerate also the most painful force
I’m thirsty for those every tender moment and sweet attitude
Coz your current coldness makes me be destroyed
every time be idolized for me
don’t let my feelings get simplified
Freeze me with your coldness
wrap me with your ice
don’t let my soul get dried
It’s like waves on the shore
coz they also come and go
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3. |
Nightmare of the Belle
04:33
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In one snowy winter day
I got the chance to know one little and charming girl
with brilliant eyes that shine on your face
each of her sight
put me under a spell
of this tender belle
she chose my mind as the spot to dwell
But there was something she wanted to share
it was the fever that tough to bear
for this tiny girl it’s unfair
from time to time
she gets some nightmare
How this beauty can
deserve this severe pain
How this little body can
get it again and again?
This hurricane
If only I was able to
take away your strain
keep yourself so warm
just some days will pass
and the time will soothe the storm
Despite of splendid smile
I can see that darkness
which lives in your inside
where lots of mysteries hide
It was very long time
that the big secret followed your life
and you didn’t know how to strive
This kind of state is rare
All people were unaware
so, within past two decades
Anyone did not know why
she gets some nightmare
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4. |
From the Distance
03:13
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5. |
Imaginary Portrait
07:07
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Hey girl, tell me, why you are so beautiful?
Could anyone, please tell me
how she can be so graceful?
There is no way stopping to look at your elegance
My eyes are fortunate to see this true miracle
Don’t brush your hair, keep it always curly
It is not needed to use any make up,
cause you have natural beauty
What makes me so intoxicated and dizzy
Is just contemplating her exotic delicacy
Which is in front me
My spirit has been enchanted by
your every glance, every motion,
I’ve wholly lost
In the magical fascination
Longing for getting close to you
Now has turned into my addiction
What a delightful cage!
Through hands of this daydream
I am drawing your portrait
On my foggy mind
by mirroring this charm in my head
All that I recalled about you are now on the palette
They’ll be used to paint the drawing
and to cuddle each single trait
That actual beauty now is phantom,
Which beams from far away and melts me
with its sparkling light and ecstasy
Through gazing at the portrait
Each of my side was encircled by
walls of heaven
and by your delicious illusion
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6. |
After the Death
03:01
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After the death,
Will we feel ourselves?
Will I perceive that I’ve died
Or get lost in the oblivion inside?
After the death
Is there any way to know?
what comes then
while turning to be just nothing
and existing no more?
It is not being here or there,
but nowhere, the moment
that we disappear
being drowned in eternal dream
and back to where
we were before
Existing no more!
Until the birth of mine
I was dead throughout the time
Over the billions of years i wasn’t sensing me
and telling me that:
“wait, my life-turn will come!”
the same scene with after the death
which is the end of temporary journey
and leaving for the permanent infinity
but there is not any likelihood that
we will not die one day
Death moment at the end will come
with no out from this way
and we all will die!
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7. |
Separate Line
04:57
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Man I couldn’t be the person
that others exactly want
So please leave me alone
and let my self be its own
Your preferences cannot mean mine
Coz everyone has in the lifeblood a separate line
This being belongs to me
and no one has the right to restrain
the liberty to be free
That is not all in all compulsory
for the sake of rest
to shape the personality
If you are in the depth of one faith just go for it
But I am not obliged to do the same on that belief
All feel as the most brainy yet we are dumb
But one’s truth is one’s fiction or the other way around
coz It is relative
This being belongs to me
and no one has the right to restrain
my liberty to be free
That is not all in all compulsory
for the sake of rest
to shape the personality
If you have in the day some spare time
That does not mean that whole the world is alike
No one is the core of humankind coz every soul is unique
Everyone belongs to his mind!
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8. |
Winter Sun
02:07
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Since the day you’ve gone from my life
Everything around is gloomy and pale
Just the memories are left behind
Where now I’m rambling to read again this tale
There were the times
When she was raising up her eyes at once
With those bewitching sights
Smiling on me in that brilliance
Spreading her fainting smell
She’s just left on me the trail
And moved away
Now that freezing shine
In the heaven on dreams of mine
Is brightening its flare
But I can’t see there
Your tender smile fondling my heart
Let your pure delight
Become close to my eyes
My life is so far from you with billion miles
You’re like the winter Sun
In the open and serene sky
Sparkling in the distance
Yet still keeping the ice
Just one single time
I want to hold her tight
But maybe this chance not
Will be given to me entire life
Being lost in this love
Befuddled in your eyes will be enough
Come back my beloved
Come back little girl
The life will be lonesome without your
Tender smile fondling my heart
Let your pure delight
Gently touch my eyes
But she is staying so far from me
With billion miles
Beneath the freezing shine
I’ll be drenched in your dawn
Under the pouring rain of the stable calm
If the clouds cover the sky
It will still shimmer the light
As she beams on my mind
While being out of sight
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9. |
Just a Friend
03:19
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Once upon a time
I hit upon a girl who can blow any mind
She was wondering why
All the people are craving for her love behind
Calm down, it should be so
Coz you’re just too beautiful to us
That no one could resist on
The magic of this beauty
This loveliness, see
Is searching for to steal our heart
And lock up in its chain,
so where ever you go
All boys are dragged to that charm
But I’m not special just one of them
Don’t put me aside for being in your life
Let’s be just a friend
Now you can snuggle on me tight
I’ll take your scent tonight to my inside until the Sun will rise
Scratch your hair while looking into deep eyes
But doing this just as a friend
One step
And it will ruin this stage?
Or is there any chance?
Make a hint and help me to decide
One step ahead I feel the dread
Of being pushed to the far distance
Away from your glance
Then what would I do How to carry on without you
When that sweetheart is not around?
So keep those boundaries
And put again the frames
It’s better to hold myself before her
Just as a friend
While waiting for the right time to finally reveal my love
Which should be done then, but not now
you’ve started talk to me about your man suddenly
Unbearable to listen and see
How I’m losing her completely
She belongs to me no more
My love is overdue
No reason to continue
To stay in your chain
And be just a friend
Your dear friend
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10. |
Universe in the Mind
06:41
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Before the universe there was nothing. Doesn’t mean the empty black space, because it would be something. Nothing is before everything was ever created which is voidness.
What the dream
It is just one kiss up to the heaven
When your delightful charm Is rising up in my dawn
What the scene
Standing in the heart of my thinking as a queen
Expanding the splendor
And covering my entire own
Don’t live just inside of my mind
But also come close to the sight
Glow in my dark empty space
With the golden light
And entwine me tight
You are melting my heart
With every dance of pure sight
Life without your love is void
In the morning when I open my eyes
She wakes up in the mind
With her shadow beside
The most splendid star
in the night
Turns out to the brightest sunshine
In the dark sky to rise
Look, again she is now posing
What the beautiful posture!
In the mist of dreams in my head
As just a myth
But I’m just dead outside
Where deep in the dark
You have only settled down In the universe on my mind
Keeping me there alive
You are cuddling my thoughts
Bringing billions of stars to my sky
And making me lost in the cold and dark paradise
In the eternal night from the far distance
Sparkling and keeping my heart beating for the hope
That she’ll come one day to the existence
In my dark sky to rise
You are melting my heart
With every move, every sight
Life without your love is void
In the endless beauty of this space
There is no escape, No way to touch the borders
So I stay
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11. |
Waiting for the Moment
03:28
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You are leaving this country and leaving me
Before making all the memories
That are shaping more “We”
Here is the final sight
And the distance will be our boundary
I’ll be dancing with you in this music in my fantasy
But send me some those sweet vibes
Through the “Dividing Sea”
The days are turning
Time is running fast till that town
And I’m waiting for the moment
To look at you
I’m just waiting for the moment
She will come to the real life again
And there is nothing to hinder me here
So I’m waiting for the moment to look at you
Waiting for the time
To see you
The sun-kissed hair was the shine to my life
The tender sound was almost stopping every drum of my heart
Tell me, will I ever live it on without having your beautiful smile?
The strangers will see it in their around
While I’m just having you in my mind
Just some months are left to bring it to the life
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12. |
Walking on the Way
04:16
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When we started our life in different pathways
There was no chance that they would meet in the story
How the things were built and made
As no one chose the route
But followed the trace
That you just came along and embraced me?
In the middle of the lonely wilderness
She came and gave breath into my heart
Came in and but walked away
Before we’ve been lost though
Then I found you
And didn’t let us be apart
Come over girl
Let’s walk the way together
We just came to be the one
Let’s walk the way
Leading to the mountains to climb
To touch the clouds and the heat of the sun
On the way will be seeing beautiful places
So many beautiful memories will be the share
To our life
Don’t see further on the road as flat, plain and smooth as it seems
We couldn’t see every place by standing here
Sometimes we’ll walk at the edge of precipice
There never look down
Keep your eyes ahead to survive
Sometimes the wind can blow that hard
Take the tree out of the root
But we’ll stand
As long as our love is alive
Come over girl
Let’s walk the way together
Listen to your heart
Let’s walk the way
Give your hand and squeeze
Don’t be scared
I’m just here for us
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13. |
Release Yourself
04:27
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Somebody deep inside
Is knocking on the breast
Is tied up with the chains
For the sake of someone elses
But now is the time
To stand before everyone
Load up what is stacked till now
Tear your chest apart and
Release yourself
Release yourself
Not to stay inside
Release yourself
Every time
Open up your mind
Release!
Why staying in the place
Where I don’t belong?
Swallowing my thoughts
Keeping always something wrong?
That’s not the shame
To stand with the naked brain
It’s time to spit on what thay think
Tell to my spirit
Release yourself
Release yourself
By leaving the all the blame
Behind
Free yourself
There is no need to be in the prison
I’m just a jailbird in the freedom
Tell the one inside to open the rumpled wings
Tell the one it’s time
To open to the sky
It was a long time that I have been trying to hide
Myself inside
With the sense of the duty to abide
By not seeing everything from my side but the other
Just to make every single person feel satisfied
Well I can give up from my dreams for you all
And to put my doings away to put yours ahead
Well I can do the music only one that you love
Let’s my taste go away
Let’s my time run away
Main thing is that yours is in a good phase
You are the main track that I have to trace
But the new page new life new day should come
The real nude person shall let itself alone
The brain has a lot to say
It is fed by eating every thought before it becomes a throwaway
Till today
That is not fair to take the one inside to the grave
It’s huge regret to contrast the real self and the people
Then put the self as a slave
The one knows itself the best than all
Thousands of people cannot decide for one what to do what to say
If you are hundred percent certain which is the way
Then fall thousand times and stand up again
Release what exists before it becomes too late
Or wake up one day to see how you’re gone astray
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Orkhan Efendi Baku, Azerbaijan
Orkhan Efendi is an indie blues rock musician and songwriter. He has started to record his original songs since 2014
following to begin to perform on the stages in 2018. Efendi’s main genres are blues, blues rock, rock’n roll, rock ballads, progressive rock, but always with the combination of diversified styles and eastern elements.
for more: www.orkhanefendi.com/about
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